Initial Contact.
Rahhhh. Sooo. I might have, mayyybe stolen this from Jamie. However. I didn’t know about it until seeing his. and I HATE livejournal. And this seemed legit. Chyeaaa. Alright. So. Hmm. My life. My first entry. ha. well I guess I’ll ramble about my boring life, this way i don’t annoy other people, and on and on. Blah. Anyways. Ha.
I am going to be the guy who sections things off. Ha. But just this time. ha.
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Friends—
Alright, well for starters, I have been going through a lot lately, and that results in losing friends. Well idk. I guess. Idk. Anyways…start off with:
Katie.
Well. Katie and I have been best friends for awhile now. I told her everything above everything. like. anything i would tell someone, but not everyone else. idk. ha. and we have always had our differences, but the worst is her new found love<3OMG!! NICKJAMESLANDRY«<333 Im a lame teenage girl who doesnt fucking know what love is yet. What four days of dating him, when before you said yes, you thought he was such a creep? HMMMMMMM. Fuck. uisgisbuvgu. and anyways, i was fine with him. Except he made out with her 99.7 percent of the time. and like wtf. dude. time and a place, but oh jeez. you disagree with him, and your “close minded” WTF does close minded even mean anyways. When I was younger I thought it was clothed minded. haha=]]. anyways back to Katie. Okay so then after that fallout with him, we leave my sisters party, at which they just made out the whole time. and they want food. we get there and all i have is a 20 and all he has is a 20. so i payed with his then said, i have to get a drink at the gas station and ill give you change. then he was all ohh my change is ten bucks thats it oh okay with a cocky attitude. like fuck. no. fuck you. i just fucking told you. like ughhh. then he didnt even fucking want the change. like wtfff. so i drop his ass off. then im bringing katie home. not only is she not talking to me and not listening to what im saying, she is texting him the whole time. okaayyy wtf. her ass gets dropped off.
the next day we had planned a just us day. because prior to that we had been with nick landry everyday or i hadnt seen her. so i was looking forward to it. i also was having a bum day and i wanted to just see her, not even talk about it, just see her cause it cheers me up rightttt. so she fuckin ignores me all day, doesnt answer, doesnt text, nothing. then accidently calls me when shes in the car getting a ride home from her dad. but no she was out with her mom and in bed all day,…ok…BULLLLL… so i told her i was mad and all this shit and it got to the fact that we are no longer friends…
I dont hate her, but i need space from her. im jealous…i guess…idk..
Alex.
Alex Camp…obfisbgpoibgnbvfgopivgfb. Obsession of my life. my other best friend. And I am the lame friend who has a thing for his best friend. Which fucks up our relationship, friend way, in a few ways. Now. I have my theory. I think Alex likes me liking him, cause everytime im losing interest, he does something to pull me in, and he knows he is doing it. Like the stuff isnt like how he does something, or well it is, but its actions you have like control and thought and shit, not everyday kinda deal. All I honestly want is at least to be really really good friends. but he is an intovert and i am extraverted, hence why we dont click all the time. i find him to be the most interesting person i know. and ill never not be there for him…and its not my slightly creepy amazement over him, its just he is the most geniuine, kind hearted person i know, he just likes to shield it, but its true. and i sound ubber gay saying that but idc….idk if ill ever have that close friendsship with him…he pushes me away…idk why either.
Maddy.SteveCarr.SteveNolan.Kira.andOthers.
We all were so close. and it sucks. cause you all left. all at once. and like i remain in contact and that like oh hey im in town friendship, but like….i want the old one back. idk. idk.
everyfriend.
I feel like im a problem, more then a friend. like people are getting annoyed and find me old news. everyone just seems to be leaving me at the same time. and i mean im used to not having people to rely on, but i just trust people too much. idk…like idk.
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Relationships—
Jamie. Jamie. Jamie. Hey. Jamie. Idk. I feel like Im just a time passer/filler. I feel like he cant commit to em and why he degraded our status because of his fuckin infactuation with “bestfrannnn” Tim. Now I dont know tim, nor do i know how they are together. and I always make assumptions and Im wrong a lot of the time. Idk. But ALLLLL Jamie likes to talk about is how Tim this, Tim that. and like I KNOW he like HAS to. Like you know when people say, rah rah rah I Would Never Like Such Ann Such Ever Again!, BUTT they really do and its obvious. Well, thats what I get from him. Like idk. and it sucks cause I like him a lot. Last night we like shared more then we have before. But Im scared if it remains on his just friends basis for a lot longer, then thats all it will be. idk.idfbg. Idk. Confussssssssssssssed.
Thats all for now, i gotta eat dinnnnuhhhhh
