and the distance took you away…
I honestly idk. everything with everyone has gotten fucked…like legit.
Jamie. — Well hmm. wtf. idk. I feel like im just whatever. seriously. Like I feel like im just whenever he feels like. Like no. Im a person. I have feelings. Idk. Idk what to do either. Like. I like him. Buttt. Oh nooo. Yet again you were just something till something else comes along better. and now hes all Nate nate nate<333. Like. no. ugh. idk. i cant just be just chasing after something for no reason if its never going to expand. Its just not my thing. What am I? I have no fucking clue. But Im not a toy and I am not someone who just sits on the side lines while you hook up with other people. No. ha. No. So. Idk anymore. Idk what to do.
Alex. — FUCK. Seriously. You are such a fucking asshole. Really. Idk. I try to be there all the time, but I can never amount to anything but a once a month person to you. Your scared to surface who you really are cause you feel like you fail at everything and its all in your head. so snap the fuck out of it. I like you. I stopped making it awkward. Your the only one holding on to that. Im over you anyways. And last night was our first legit fight. but you took it way out of fucking context and it was so rediculous. grace even said you read into it wrong jesus….rahh.
Katie. — Shes just being rediculous. She hates me for stupid reasons. Really stupid reasons. And we were meeting to talk about why we were mad at eachother and we were going to try and resolve the issues. So I asked her to lunch on the weekend. and she says yeah sure and we plan for sunday. Then things change, but its a typical Katie thing for that to happen. Anyway. So, then we say 730. So she usually stays out and runs late so I was waiting to hear from her before I went to her house. Then She texts me saying, “oh..?” and I was like ughm I was waiting for you to text me to say when to come. And she says i should have known. fuck you your a bad friends dont bother with me blah blah blah. and I was like I wasnt just going to drive to your house if you werent there and whatever. idk. Its just stupid. Get over it. Get over yourself. And grow the fuck up. Please.
GrAcE.<3. — AHHHH. Grace=]. She is my new best friend. I love her. She is wicked funny. and warm and full of energy and squirrells talk to her. She honestly means the world to me. Im glad we found eachother again. AHhh=].
K.D. — =]. Rah. [= —
School is lame. I hate being there. So fucking much. idk.
I think I am losing my house or some shit. Idk.
And I feel low all the time. Empty and useless. Like so many people dont want me around. And its true. And the people I strive to be with dont care that Im even around. and its like lame. I had everything. And then it was all gone. Thats what you get. Ha. Idk. But really. Im happy. I guess. Im more. Just. Mellow. And Whatever. But Its sort of good. Idk. Eh.
I just need to get away.
april vacation should save me.
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