Sing me something soft, sad, and delicate…
I strive for something. Something more then whatever this is that I am living. I think I am more then this town, more then this small pathetic excuse for a state. My future will consist of someone prominant. Someone mature and able to keep up with the fast paced life that consumes us all. Everyone currently surrounding me is too caught up in themselves to help me or even acknowledge whats wrong.
To be completely honest. I have no clue whats wrong. Me personally.I feel empty. And I want to help everyone else around me and I always go after the wrong thing, even when someone or something good is there. I go for the people who don’t stick around. I hang out with people to get me through the day, but I feel no connection. Like I don’t fit in with them, or anything that comes along with them. I push off that I am happy and I only fill people in half way. I don’t trust anyone anymore and I am always second guessing. I cant come to terms with anything and I am confused always. I just dont understand anything around me.
I want someone. Someone who I can tell everything to. Someone who will be my best friend, lover, and someone who I can just sit home with and laugh. I want somoene to like me for my flaws and someone to help me get back on track.
Katie was all I knew. and now I have to actually figure out who I am. I know who I am and shit, just more in depth I guess.
I want my friends back, I want new friends. And I want to get away.
Idk. Just some food for thought.
Rah.
